Sooo....I have some things on my brain and I am spilling them here... I know, I know, what is this some kind of open blog forum??? Ha.. but seriously.. Lots of people may or may not know that I use to be huge....I'm talking 220...I'm not ashamed to tell you I weigh 140-145 now...(give or take a few pounds given that chicken pot pie I had last night )...though I'd like to be smaller...my weight is not what this post is about...It's about why I run...why it sets me apart from others. A few years back people would have thought I was crazy to say " I'm going to run a full marathon" .....and then I did it... I remember taking that first step across the finish line and thinking "holy crap I'm gonna collapse"...I wanted to cry, but I couldn't...it was crazy....last year I did every step for myself, and to prove that I could. Now that being said my mentality has changed quite a bit...a lot has happened in my world....and I once again feel like I have a whole new purpose for it/health in general( although don't judge me by the pot pie and the cupcakes I can devour,few actually realize how much I actually enjoy cupcakes)....... (reason number 137)My Pops( grandpa/bestfriend) ...he's one of the most amazing people in the world ...no kidding...he can have a conversation with anyone( you wonder where I get it from) ... he's a diabetic...and up until yesterday the doctors told us that they were going to have to amputate his foot because there was no blood flow .... and it was always cold...just a dead foot...it was killing me...for a year and a half now he has gone everyday to lay in one of those oxygen chamber things for 4 hours a day, to see if they could get it to heal...too often I think we forget things like this actually exist ...so this year I wanted to run for him...because I was afraid that he wouldn't be able to walk on "his own 2 feet".....ohhh but yesterday....yesterday was huge news for us. and praise God for it..the doctors couldn't believe it...they got his foot to bleed(lots) and it was warm to the touch! SOOOO yet again I am faced with a another reason to run... because if a 75 year old veteran, can overcome obstacles like he has faced...I'm pretty sure I can make it thru a 26.2 mile run, and look like a bad ass for doing it
All of these ramblings lead me to ask...why do you run? Is it so for that 2 hours you're hitting the pavement you don't have to be hooked up to your insulin pump? My amazing friend Jessie Lawson can tell you about that..Or is it simply to stay in shape? Or maybe because it's cheaper than therapy( this is my motto for sure)...think about it seriously though....why do you do it? Remind yourself this week why you fell in love with ( insert activity here. Running,rowing,climbing,etc) ...and then fall in love all over again. I was reminded yesterday when I found out the news about my Pops...and then completely remembered it when I went for a run downtown with my good friend Stephen....(by the way if you haven't ran with him yet,you totally should...talk about motivational coaching)....last night I posted that picture of the Memorial all lit up...it was peaceful and exactly what I needed...sometimes it's the little things that can change your entire outlook...so should you find yourself in a rut....remind yourself WHY you do what you do...and why it feels good to be called crazy for the grueling work you're doing.
Lots of love and toast!
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